May 24, 2011

The Days Went By...

...And the days went by like paper in the wind. Everything changed, then changed again...

Here we are and our little bug is already two months old. I know I've said it before and I will surely say it again, but time flies by so fast. I feel like I look up and the normal that I had just become accustomed to has already changed into something else. It's like being in a constant state of metamorphosis. Change is not something I embrace easily. I tend to want to put things in their proper boxes and for them to then stay there. I'm slowly learning to let change be a good thing...

Here are some of the changes in our lives:

1) CHRIS GOT A NEW JOB!!! Hooray! He will still be working for FedEx in their USI Marketing department as their Go To Market person. However, he will be working on a new and exciting product for FedEx. He will still be in the same building on the same floor; he IS switching teams though. I'm really excited for several reasons, 1) I am so proud of my husband! He has deserved this for so long now and has busted his butt! 2) This job change also includes a promotion and a raise, which is always always a wonderful thing 3) His new boss seems really really cool!

2) I am officially back at work after 9 weeks of maternity leave. It honestly feels like I never left. I am so so happy to be back. I really missed working a lot and having something to discuss at the end of the day other than baby poo. I seriously don't know how stay at home mom's do it. I think both sides have their good points, but I know for me trying to be a SAHM would be as impossible at nailing Jello to a tree. I'm simply not cut from that cloth. I AM very nervous about leaving Evie at daycare (this week she's with Chris' mom and dad). I keep thinking that she's going to wake up and need me and I won't be there. I know that is a fear that most mom's probably deal with and one I know that I will learn to deal with. I am comforted to know that her daycare is awesome! She's going to Happy Times in Olive Branch. I have a friend who works there in the mornings and her grandmother owns it. All of the recommendations have been stellar and the facility itself is super nice. BUT, like I said, I'm still nervous. I'm also a little panicked over the household stuff. How in the world am I supposed to get it all done: be a good wife, be a good mother, clean the house, keep up with the dogs, keep up with the cats, stay on top of the cleaning and the laundry and still try and have at least a minute or two to myself occasionally? I still don't know the answer.

3) Evie is growing so fast! She has had her first set of shots and weighed in at 12.2 pounds and measured 22 inches long! That puts her in the 50th percentile for height and the 90th percentile for weight. That's right folks: She. Is. A. Chubby. Baby. In one way, I guess I got my wish. Dr. Fesmire said she looks beautiful and is doing great! Developmentally, she holds her head up like a champ and already pushes herself up on her arms. Her neck muscles are so strong and she really prefers to be held facing out so she can look around and see what she can see. She's also started smiling at us, which is fun! She loves to lay on her changing pad (go figure) and wave her arms and legs around while she grins at us. She's also starting to learn to splash about in the bath so we can't fill the tub up quite as much!

I can't believe how fast she is growing up!

Here are some up to date pictures!

She likes to smile! I'm hoping to catch a better picture of it soon!

Here she is in her special outfit she wore the day of her daddy's interview for the new job! Clearly she was good luck!

May 13, 2011

7 Weeks Old!

Our little Evie bug turned 7 weeks old on Tuesday! Where has the time gone? It has flown somewhere on the wings of dirty diapers, drooly smiles and sleepless nights.

Our little bug has already grown so much! As best we can tell she weighs about 12 pounds, and her hands and feet are huge!

She loves to listen to her Momma sing to her. I'm not big on lullabies so Evie is soothed to tunes by Journey, Bruno Mars, Jason Mraz and The Beatles. She also gets a fairly large dose of show tunes!

She continues to LOVE her bath! It's one of the best times of the day! On her fussier days I might put her in the bath 2 or 3 times. It is like instant baby mute! We've also been "swimming" in her bath tub outside! I made the mistake of letting her go skinny dipping earlier this week and she just went right ahead and pooped in the tub! It was hilarious and confusing! I forgot to bring a diaper outside and I only had the one towel. If she hadn't been so upset about it I would have been howling in laughter!

Here she is in her bathing suit!

She continues to challenge her momma every day! We have gotten a good routine down and when we stick to it our days are so pleasant! Days that she is off are much harder on both mom and baby. It's easy to say: just stick to the routine, but that also limits us a lot as to what we can do. It's a learning process!

She's still sleeping very well! Almost since the beginning she has always allowed us one 4-5 hour stretch and very rarely wakes up more than once a night. She has even slept the whole night twice. Once she slept 10:45 to 5:15 and a few nights later she slept from 10:00 to 7:00!!! I keep hoping for a repeat!

Thanks for checking in all! We are loving being parents!

May 6, 2011

It's Alright

Dear Evie,

Even though this has been the longest and hardest almost seven weeks of my life,

Even though there are still days when you scream for what seems like hours on end (and indeed there are days when you do scream for hours on end), and I can feel the doubt, guilt and anxiety creeping back in,

Even though there are times when I have been puked on, peed on and pooped on within an hour's time,

Even though our house is not as clean as I would like because I spend the majority of my day trouble shooting a fussy baby,

Even though my hands are dry and cracking from all of the washing of bottles and YOU,

Even though you create more dirty laundry than I ever thought possible,

Even though you sometimes cry an entire thirty minute car ride,

Even though my back is breaking from the hefting, bending and carrying,

Even though my world has been turned upside down and sideways by your mere presence,

It's alright, little bit, because there are moments in between all of the chaos and confusion you have created when you look at me. And in those moments I see in your eyes that you KNOW that I'm your mom. You recognize not just my face but that I'm YOUR mom and those looks reassure me that we'll get it together, that the pieces will fall into place eventually. In those fleeting spaces in time, even if I question it later, I know deep in my heart, that is all worth it.

Since the moment you arrived on this planet, our time together has been nothing like I thought it would be. You've been nothing but trouble from the start. :) It's alright though, because I wouldn't trade one second of what is and what has been for a different experience with you.

You have my heart now, tangled in tiny baby fingers and you are my soul.

And it's alright little bug.


Your Mommy